A day with death

Here are some notes on a ruff for another piece I wanna do shortly.

Here I sit looking through hourglasses of time. Each grain of sand I can look at for an eternity. For they sit suspended for all of time, yet, in the same breadth, are gone, silently I watch the grain fall to its demise. They do not fall of their own volition; they do not fall of mine. They do not greave the beat of the life that is left behind. The tumble of each grain shakes my world asunder. (laughs) (smokes cigarette.)Like thunder rolling against mountains I hear the grains interactions. I blink away the pain I feel for the loss of that moment. For it is one of many that fleet past. What is it like to sit with the life of someone in your hands you may wonder?
Dark. (lights and smokes cigarette.)
Eternal. (puts out a finished one)
Abhorred. (starts another)
Terse. (push in on mouth inhaling and exhaling)
Harmonious.
I have seen the coming and going of everyone that exists in the past, present, and future. I can look through my own glass and see the universe existing and dispersing. I was not always the way I am now. Over the millennia of time, I have grown in consciousness. Some may think that this is a good thing. For me it is not. To see the birth and death of everything is lonely. Life forms ask me when I come for them if there is anything in the life beyond this one. All I can tell them is “I don’t know”. I have never died, or ever will. I am to collect on the death of what is. Everything that I take weeps in its own manner in fear of the unknown. They cry asking me is it always so cold and lonely. My response is to hold their glass drained of sand and spread their time on the winds of eternity. I watched one day as a life was taken in stoic silence. All present at the life’s end starred at me with knowing eyes. They did not run in fear. They sat stoically. Peaceful. The loss of their consciousness of self was beautiful. There is nothing I can compare the passing of life to. For each moment of time is I in and unto myself.
I have sat and seen from the birth and destruction of atomic proportions to the simple dying of a breeze. That to me is the closest I can ever come to sadness. I take this form on your planet for that of the giver is already taken in your species. I am here to collect. Some may wish to know what my name is. I am called many things and nothing at all. For me there is no name, just a sensation. There are just some words that can only be carried through emotion. To understand is simplification into unfair proportions. The movement through existence outside of known time is my only consolation to what I am. (laughs) (smokes cigarette.)

Till we meet again. I will be watching you.

More readings

Just finished reading By Design. New Digital Cinema 2. Pretty good read and thorough about our visual technology and growth into multimedia. Keeps me wanting to push video boundaries.

reading

Just read up on stillness and the moving mage. Could have done without the psychoanalysis. Now reading the Fiction topics set of readings.

Mulvey

Good article on space and place of camera and its convention understanding with sexuality. Kind of annoys me to think that for putting something in for purely aesthetic coices or because I feel with my own creative choices it belongs there it could be taken into whatever contexts a person wants.

The Future of the Feature

I really like the theories employed and how I can see the need of technology still to change and seeing its progression. I still think that the Darma 95 group were a little...to forceful with ideas that they could not even follow. But one the less since its not total Dadaism its ok. Its great though to take their idea and create rules and guidelines and you know...actually follow them to the letter. It is interesting though to see how both digital cinema and film is developing. The imagery is so clear. There is still a definite different kind of feel between the two types. But they are both great in their own respective ways. Its nice to see where we have been, and with the advent of the red and the viper and many other types of cameras we will see more leaps and bounds in cinema. I don't think that we will reach the point where we can get film quality out of a digital camera that is pulled out of the mailbox to shoot. Would love to see it happen because then the bounds of feature cinema would be open and free. They are getting damn close now though.

Third project

Ok so it has changed cause I didn't feel like it was challenging enough. So now it will be a slow paced series of shots in a wooded location with a man grizzly and in what could be perceived as first man clothing. We are watching him working and watching around him. Then he pounces on us. My goal in this piece is to take the visuals and make them more of a perspective from the viewer as if they are actually there. Then it ends. but can't give up the ending. that would be cheating.

Proposal III

For my third project I am looking at either doing an installation that will run for an hours time or for a short delving into the struggle for freedom after being "abducted". The individual will have both arm and leg tendons cut so as to impede movement as well as mouth wrapped in duct tape. The focus of this is to emotionally drive the viewers. It will be a horror type of piece is my thinking. Researching currently for lighting and other techniques for this piece.

Woot!

Got a review of us on line from art-sounds!

http://review-magazine.org/2009/10/09/second-friday-4/#more-2925

progress

Ok. Just finished post on sound. It's as good as its going to get for now. Will definitely have to redubb it again. Plus watched peeping tom and 8 1/2 now starting stardust memories and work on my paper.

Stills not yet edited from todays production

2nd project

Just wrapped up shooting my second project today. Big round of applause goes out to the IFC for their support and assistance with a space to work in as well as my lovely cast and crew. The footage looks beautiful. Going to pull some stills and post them now.

DOOO! >.<

Just realized that I botched the spelling on my Blog name and stuff. lol.